Testimony PT II

THIS WEEK HAS BECOME VERY BUSY..BOUGHT A GAS GRILL...I WAS SKEPTICLE AT FIRST "BEING"...IT'S BEEN 2 YEARS SINCE THE FIRE OF MY NEIGHBOR IN BAC OF ME..SHE MADE THE MISTAKE OF LEAVING THE GRILL SHE HAD UP AGAINST HER BACKYARD WALL...WHERE IT STARTED A FIRE..FLAMES WENT EVERYWHERE...WE SMELLED THE SMOKE..STARTED COUGHING OURSELVES...I WAS DEVISTATED TO SAY THE LEAST..AS A RESULT..WE HAD TO PUT THEM UP FOR THREE WEEKS..WHILE GLENDA...THE "MOTHER" STAYED AT HER SISTER'S HOUSE...UNTIL REPAIRS WERE MADE...YOU KNOW ..THE LORD IS AMAZING...IN LIFE ..WE DO THINGS TO OTHERS...WHERE AS WHEN ONE GOOD TERM DESERVES ANOTHER...WERE THE EXAMPLE OF GOD'S IMFIMITE WISDOM AND STRENGTH...YOU SEE...IT WAS EXACTLY 6 YEARS BEFORE THIS HAPPEN..THAT MY SON WAS INVOLVED IN A ROBBERY..COME TO FIND OUT..IT WAS MY SON WHO ROBBED THEIR HOME...THESE SAME NEIGHBORS..MY CHILDREN GREW UP WITH...HE EMBARRISHED ME SO MUCH...ALL THE NEIGHBORS KNEW ABOUT IT..COULDN'T BELIEVE IT WAS NATE...NOW...CLEAN..NO MORE DRUGS...NO ALCOHOL....AND OH YEAH...NO STEALING...CLEANED HIS OWN BROTHER AND SISTER'S THING OUT ...AS WELL AS MY STUFF...I WENT THROUGH HELL AND HIGH WATER WITH HIM FOR THE NEXT 2 YEARS..NOW...AT 27...HE'S MY YOUNGEST GROWN MAN..YES I SAID YOUNGEST OF 5 CHILDREN..HE DID SO MUCH DAMAGE IN HIS LIFE...BUT...MY NEIGHBOR GLENDA ...HAS FORGIVEN EVERYTHING HE DID...WE BEEN TOGETHER AS NEIGHBORS FOR 41 YRS..VERY CLOSE...BUT GLENDA KNEW I WAS STRUGGLING WITH THIS PROBLEM..BUT SHE NEVER EXPECTED IT TO GO THAT FAR..MY CHILDREN'S FATHER..WAS MURDERED..IN 91..THERE AFTER..MY SON FLIPPED ON ME...I THANK GOD FOR DA BLESSINGS..I WAS A DIVORCED WOMAN...WHERE I MET THEIR DAD...DRUGS CAME IN2 PLAY..WHERE HE OWED MONEY..OF WHICH...TOOK HIS LIFE..HE WAS SHOT IN DA HEAD..HE WAS MISSING FOR TWO WEEKS...WHERE THEY FOUND HIM LYING IN WATER IN DA BRONX NY...NATE WAS ONLY 10 YEARS OLD...WHEN WE GOT THE CALL FROM HIS MOTHER..IT WAS A SUNDAY..WE JUST GOT BACK FROM CHURCH..I WAS PREPARING DINNER...WHEN THE PHONE RANG..HIS MOM SAID AND I QUOTE...SHEILA..WE LAST HIM..I REPLIED "WHAT DO U MEAN"? ..LOST HIM...THEY FOUND ANTHONY'S BODY...MY DAUGHTER TAMMY..FAUNTED...FELL DOWN THE BASEMENT STAIRS..HEAD FIRST...I SCREAMED UNTIL MY MOM CAME OUT HER BEDROOM..SAID..WHAT HAPPEN...WE ALL JUST HELD ONE ANOTHER AND I HELD MY CHILDREN SO TIGHT AND CRIED..THESE CHILDREN HAVE HAD A HISTORY OF NEGLIGENCE ON HIS FAMILY'S BEHALF..RAISED MY KIDS WITH THE RESPECT OF LIVING UNDER AUTHORITY...ALWAYS RESPECT YOUR ELDERS...NATE WAS REBELLING FOR YEARS
I WENT THROUGH THERAPY...PROGRAMS..MEETINGS...IT'S BEEN A HARD NUT 2 CRACK...BUT I MADE IT THROUGH WITH FLYING COLORS...GIFTED BY GOD..WHERE...WITHOUT HIM...FAMILY ISSUES WOULD HAVE PLACED ME AWAY RIGHT ALONG WITH MY CHILD..NOW...NATE...MY NEIGHBOR
GLENDA..HER KIDS..MY KIDS ARE THE BEST OF FRIENDS...THEY CALL US FAMILY...AND YES..THE CHURCH BROUGHT THEM ALL TOGETHER..WHERE THE MOTHER..HER TWO DAUGHTERS... TERRY AND SHAYNA...MY DAUGHTER..TAMMY AND MY GRAND KIDS..WERE ALL BAPTIZED ALL IN ONE DAYS CEREMONY...NATE..WELL..IT STILL WORKING ON HIM..BUT HIS RECOVERY CAME WHEN HE LEFT US FOR THOSE 2 YEARS...SCARED STRAIGHT TACTIC...IT WORKED.."PRAISE DA LORD"..
THOUGHT I MENTION...THANK U FOR YOUR TIME...CREATE
"A COMMENTARY"
WHEN I LOOK BACK ON CHANGE...DISCOVERING..THIS TOO SHALL PASS...HOLDS A
VERY IMPORTANT MESSAGE DOWN HERE ON EARTH..YOU CAN FOOL SOME OF THE PEOPLE ALL OF THE TIME..BUT U CAN'T HIDE FROM YOURSELF...IT SNEAKS UP FROM BEHIND AND GRABS A HOLD OF U...TAKES 2 STEPS BACK FROM CLIMBING LADDERS OF SUCCESS...2 CRIMINAL NONSENSE...WITH NO EXPLANATION...EXCEPT...I NEEDED DA MONEY...WELL..SO DO I..BUT YOU DON'T SEE ME RIPPIN OFF MY FOLLOWMAN OR WOMAN ..TO GAIN INTEREST.. SO ON AND SO ON AND SO ON...LANDING U IN JAIL 4 TWO YEARS...BEING KEPT ALIVE ..AFTER SOMEONE ASK YOU
FOR YOUR SNEAKERS..U SAY NO..THEN..FIND YOURSELF IN A ALTERCATION...LEAVING MY SON HARDHEADED..WITH BLUNGEON "BLACK AND BLUE EYES" FROM BEING ATTACKED AT NIGHT..WHEN DA LIGHTS WENT OUT...THESE THINGS ARE MAJOR MOHAN...A SIGN..MY SON WORE SCARES FOR 3 WEEKS ..WHILE GOING UP IN THOSE HILLS..ON VISITS...BUT WHEN I LEAVE..U CAN SEE HIS EYES WATERED..EVERY TIME... THAT'S CHANGE WORKING ON RECOVERY..GOD BLESS

MEGA MILLION BLACK MAN

A BLACK YOUNG MAN.. 19 YEAR OLD BECOMES A MEGA MILLIONS Words from the wiseman...CONGATULATIONS...he's a blessing to his family...by adding the ages of his family members...GOD.granted him a mega million...when ask...what was the first thing he was going to do...he replied...well the first thing i will do is to give to my church..being thats what your suppose to do...the second thing i'm going to help my mom...buy her a house...at 19..this shows..all black men don't forget who they are..and how life functions when love takes it time ...goodness shall walk with "Jesus" all da days of your life...keep yours prayers going up... not for da wicked...live right...in GOD'S EYESITE...you'll shall prosper...amen...3:16..god so love the world.. he gave his only begotten son...live by this scripture...have a blessed life...Peace Create''s...Poementry

when da storm becomes too much to bare

i roar..when rain captures my emotions...i float on the seas of devotion...i cry when the pain gets so lonesome...i try what takes my notion to climb above composure...what keeps me beneath...waves that speak...loud..ranges above the ground...throws my anger... where.. laughter takes over...in order to handle what's impossible..calm... makes it's way ...release da downfall of disaster.. finds it's rescue ..i glide on surface..where..your shores gains it's trust to imbrace...a candle..with gentle warmth...compassion...i rest asure...life is my protection...where i believe love waits 4....devine intervention...the everlastng light..where i rise above sea level..cry no more..when land arrives...finds my soul in time....Create

DA NIGHTMARE / REALITY OF A DREAM

I SAW YOU.. THE SAME OLD SPECTACLE..WHAT SINGS DA SONGS OF VIRTUE...WEARS BLACK AS HIS COLOR....WALKS WITH A LIMP..TILTS HIS HEAD...PLAYS ON YOUR CALAMITY...STARES HARD AND LONG...WHERE DOES THIS DEEP CULTURE..WITH A CUT THROAT FACIAL IMAGE..COMPELS 2 FLATTERY COME FROM...HIS EYES.. SHARP IN VISION..LOOKS PIERCELY SENSUAL..BUT DANGEROUSLY CUNNING...HE STEM AMONG THE RUINS OF WOMAN..GIVES HER HIS VENOM...STINGS..LIKE A BEE.. WHEN U GET NEAR HONEYCOMB..WHERE DA BEHIVE SMELLS DA FLESH OF A HUMAN...MAKES HER DELIGHTFUL...MAKES YOU HIS BODY..WHERE HE DRAINS U DRY...MOISTURE CAN'T REASON WITH FLESH..OBSORBS YOUR LIFE..RIGHT FROM UNDER CAVLIAR DESCRETION..BEWARE OF HIS WARPED PENGELLIUM ...WITH SHARP TEETH..HE'S DA NIGHT..U DON'T WAIT 4 ALONE...KEEP YOUR GUARD UP... WAIT 4 MORNING..OPENYOUR EYES ..DA DREAM IS OVER.... WAS A NIGHTMARE... YOUR BOSS MADE U MAD..U BROUGHT HIM HOME FOR REST..WORE DISAGREEMENTS TO BED...MESSED WITH YOUR HEAD..HOW YOU GOT DISMISSED...DAM.. THAT'S HEAVY..NO...HE WAS...GET IT....SHE LET IT GET 2 PERSONAL...POEMENTRY'S CREATE

SUMMER'S TRANSCRIPT

ONE... WHO COMES WITH FLOWERS AND AN KISS HELLO... HE SMILES ...BRINGS HIS WARM ..SENSITIVITY...GENTLENESS.. WEARING A SMILE ALL DA TIME...MAKES ME LAUGH...COMES AND GOES..BUT ALWAYS SAYS ..I''LL SHALL RETURN..AND HE DOES WHEN I GET LONELY..HE KNOWS JUST WHEN TO OPEN MY EYES,,BY YELLING HEY GIRL WAKEUP..IT'S YOUR BETTER HALF OF FRIENDSHIP...MAKING TIME WITH SUMMER TRANSCRIPTS...WRITES REMINDS ME ..IT'S TIME TO GET STARTING ..GO TO WRITER GUILD..JOIN .. I GAVE YOU THE PUBLISHER'S NAME...WHERE HE CAN BE FOUND..AT THE BOWLING ALLEY IN HARLEM...THUR NIGHTS..AT 6:00PM UNTIL 10:00.. GO MAKE IT HAPPEN...TELL MS DEE..AS IN RUBY..OSSIE DAVIS'S WIFE .. I SAID I SENT YOU GIRL..WISH U LUCK MY SISTAH..GOODLUCK IN POETRY.. HOPE GET THAT BOOK PUBLISHED...YOUR FRIEND JAY...LET ME KNOW WHAT HAPPENS..PEACE THIS IS MY FINISHING PRODUCT..HOPE U LIKE IT..THE SUMMER OF 2008...NEW ADDITION....HARLEM'S.WRITER'S GUILD SYMPOSIUM...IN JULY... I kissed waves ..breaks me from bein in shy company..exposes me ..to where love grows so unsefishly...but sufficates areas that play games and frolics..once i motion ...move my bodyparts his smile scare me...i wanna keep security emotinally stable...from relapsin..while transcending closeness.the formalities 2 embrace love for my man...who keeps me strong...i enforce the urge to bring him home..light a fire and warm his heart..with candles burning..soft music and mellow magic from scented air breathin.within his space...da smell of his sweat...after shower gels leaves his soul mines..lives inside my world...the core of my being looks no more...life producted da man of my dreams..thank you GOD...what has reached for da stars..i gained da universe..as atlas..stand before we...blessed da earth's sun..da moon..and da stars..heaven gave...an entity..time blessed..CREATE....4/29/08

C . E.

IT'S BEEN A YEAR..WHERE ARE YOU..DOING HERE...WHAT ARE YOU DOING...NOW...GRANDFATHER!!..WHAT HAPPEN TO YOUR SON..THE BABY DO U STILL HAVE YOUR FRIEND...IS THIS HOW LIFE TREATS AN EX...SHES A GRANDMA AS WELL...DOES QUAN THINK ABOUT ME DOES MY NAME STILL LIVE INSIDE HIS WORLD...WHY U SAID GOODBYE BECAUSE U HAVE ANOTHER ...THAT'S OK..I'M STIILL ALIVE AND KICKIN YOUR ASS IN CONVO...THOUGHT YOU GOT OUTTA DA WAY...WHERE MILES DRIVES ITSELF TO NOWHERE ...LEADS U RIGHT BACK HERE..WHERE YOUR FACE BECOMES MY BED..MY SOFA..MY BATHROOM FROM THROWING UP YOUR GUTS UP FROM DRINKING ALCOHOL...RECOVERY...RUNNING AWAY FROM ANOTHER WHO SAID...GET DA FUCK OUT...GO SEE HER...YOUR PAST MISTAKE...YOUR GOLDEN GIRL..WITH THE BANK ACCOUNT..KNOWING ALL THE TIME...I'M AFFECTED WITH HIV...PLAYING WITH THE BOTH OF US...WHERE ARE YOU NOW IN QUEENS..BROOKLYN MANHATTAN..WHOS DA WOMAN NOW IN YOUR LIFE...I'M GONE....DO U CARE WHAT HAPPENED...I MEAN...U SAID..AND I QUOTE...WHATEVER I AM....YOUR MY PAST..FUTURE..WE GOT HISTORY ..SHEILA...WHAT EVER U NEED..I GOT FOR U...BUT..DID U GO BACK...ARE U SEXUALLY ACTIVE WITH LIZ...WE CAN NEVER BE..AS IT WAS BE4...BUT I DO DRIFT. I DO ..THINK ABOUT US...WHICH IS NO MORE...IS THERE ANOTHER..U WANNA KNOW ABOUT...DON'T BE ASKING..YOUR COUSIN OR HER DAUGHTER ...IF I'M WITH SOMEONE ELSE...I 'M ALONE...HAVE SEVERAL CLOSE ASSOCIATES ..READING POETRY..LOVING IT...GOD BLESS YOU...TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF..THANKS 4 DA VISIT TO SEE MY MOM AND NATE...U HURT HIM ALOT..BUT HE'S DOING FINE...GOT A GIRL NOW...SHE KEEPS HIM IN LINE...AND YES I'M STILL WORKING..DOING JUST FINE...FIND YOUR WAY IN LIFE..COZ I HAVE ONE...WHAT YA GONNA DO ABOUT YOURS... RECOVERY?..REPEATS SHEILA..OVER AND OVER AGAIN..STOP IT...MOVE ON..I HAVE...PEACE..SIGNED...NEW AND IMPROVED...CREATE...THOUGHT U KNEW...DONT WEAR ME IN YOUR MOUTH..I AM NO ADDICT OR CRACKHEAD..I'M YOUR RECOVERY...WITH WORDS UNSPOKEN...YOUR NUMBER WAS RIPPED UP..WON'T NEED IT...PEACE

photofinish

where i've been... shows footage...one who looks at some...never to spectate...but relive what happens...place yourself in da beginning of years conquering child from adulthood...manifest it's camera...taking you through..expecting the not so happy... 2 what you never expect...but it some cases...the truth has a price to living commercially outspoken...while the news is devistating to say the least...i am your spectator...your eyes to the prize of being a wide range of ethnicity gone wrong....so you search understanding...know that it's something only a strong...ambition overseer...can grasp..hold as her save deposit box..locked up..protect..him where sadness..puts a room full of classics...ask the cameraman...when do we begin....vote pick what's so unreal..and yet..spells da truth...how is it...your so new and improve..through all the you been through...i'm so in2 your life...see another side of you....not your real indentity..it's scary..it's not excepting friendship...not excepting me...but loving your soul inside this woman..she can't get enuff of it...but she cries all the time...feeling you..feelin she...wanting him ...never...telling how it really is in her life...following you...keeping dreams...heart flutters... gets butterflies...nervous as hell..capturing want of a brotha...in criminology's aspect...turning over...see a new face..a new prospective...anew male period...living inside your love...this has been barbells...lifting...strength of character..when times was rough..in your hood...but in all of this.i'm in love...getting sloppy...losing focus on storyline...sometimes it hurts....i can never be..a reporter..or a news editor...my footage ..alone makes me go in2 persons..with similar traits..as yours..that's me...sorry..i had to open up a can of worms...da butterflies are growing..the heart's going crazy...your the reason why..my friendship lives 4 ever..inside of you..sugah... again i crossed da line...forgive me...can't lie... got2btrue2.. uknow...poetry...da storyteller...smile...(" ) ") sj..c